I had a difficult childhood and suffered a complete mental breakdown at 14, experiencing extreme anxiety and depression. After many years of living in comparative isolation I discovered the rave scene and began to self medicate with recreational drugs. This would lift off the weight I carried and I found I could express the huge love I carried inside me that felt so squashed and repressed in my daily life. I would dance for hours on end and reach states of ecstasy and bliss. It was the first time in my life I felt a true sense of belonging.
This opened the door for me and showed me what I could achieve. I recognised along my path that the extreme highs and lows of the drug experiences were no longer serving me and I wanted to explore means of achieving ecstasy without abusing my body. I began to practise yoga and daily meditation and became interested in raw food and juicing. I also began a long period of doing development groups in Glastonbury where I would bare my soul, my deepest vulnerabilities, in a small group of people who were deeply committed to facing their shadow, so they can truly bring out the light. In sharing my burdens I would feel lifted up and such bonds of trust were created that allowed me to express and to move through the deep psychic wounds I carried.
I believe we live in extremely exciting times, that the seeming chaos we are experiencing in the world is happening because we are being forced to face the shadow that has sat over humanity for thousands of years. The old ways no longer serve us, and they have to crumble before the seeds of a new form of consciously living on the earth can arise. Art has a huge role to play and can help connect us to the timeless, spiritual dimension, beyond the comings and goings of the world.
I am in love with poetry because of the subtle ways it can open our hearts and minds.
As extensions of love and of the creative energy that gives rise to whole worlds, I believe it is our nature to create. That we are fulfilling our highest purpose by unlocking our creative potential and shedding the egoic patterns that make us feel afraid to share our song, our voice, our truth, with the world. That the world needs conscious beings to stand up and make themselves visible and to help light the fires that are igniting in hearts around the world.
Infinite love and blessings.